Sunday, August 31, 2014

Lipstick and Bandanas





Lately I've been venturing out with my makeup and going a bit bolder. I've figured out how to do a cat eye, which looks a bit edgy and cool, and I've been wearing darker lipsticks, which I absolutely love. Makeup is a great way for me to feel good about myself, even when I'm not wearing my wig. You can explore so many different looks through makeup, which I absolutely love. Additionally, I find coordinating makeup with your outfit to be quite fun. 



Nude heels are one of my favorites. They honestly go with just about anything, which I love. I'm a big fan of heels with maxi skirts, for I feel like they really lengthen your legs even more, which can be quite flattering. 


shirt from cotton on // skirt from target // kelly&katie heels // secondhand earings 



Friday, August 29, 2014

Flannels and Forests











flannel from Bob's // dress and shoes from target // beanie from hot topic 






I hope everyone has a lovely labor day weekend. I'll see you guys soon.

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Sunday, August 24, 2014

Wishing for Autumn




It may only be the end of August, but I am 100% ready for autumn to come. It is my favorite season by far, filled with some of the most gorgeous hues. When autumn comes I break out my sage and brown blouses, dark jeans, and bordeaux lipstick. I can hardly wait for the leaves to start changing, although I know I'll have to wait at least another month before they do. Fall is a beautiful season, and in my mind is the best of four. There's a certain air of melancholy in autumn, but not in a bad way. It's a feeling that makes you want to button up your coat and hurry home to your warm, cozy house and loving family. It's a time where I feel immensely grateful for the little things, whether it be family gatherings, soft blankets, warm fires, hot cider--all of it is music for my soul. I'm ready for autumn, and I'll be thrilled when it arrives. 




Minnetonka

My new obsession: Minnetonka shoes. I'm head over moccasins in love with them in every way possible. I must admit, one of my favorite things about them is that they make me feel like Pocahontas, my all time favorite Disney princess. Not only are they absolutely adorable, but they're so comfortable too. They're supportive and soft, my favorite combination. I can't believe I haven't bought any Minnetonka shoes prior to this. They're right up my alley; I absolutely adore them.  




The Hair

So you may be a bit curious as to where my hair has come from. No, I haven't found a hair growth potion that grows my hair out over night, but I've got the next  best thing: a wig. Wearing this wig has really given me back a lot of my self confidence, for as much as a bald head can be fun at times, there's quite a bit of emotional trauma when it comes to hair loss and bald patches. I picked up this wig yesterday, and I've been on top of the world since then. It's been a while since I've had hair, and having this wig is just absolutely amazing. It's beyond words. I feel like I've gotten back my femininity, and more importantly, it's given me more confidence. I don't cringe when I look in the mirror anymore; instead I feel happy to see dark, wavy locks brimming my face.

My wig is made of human hair, and it's intended for daily use.  So it needs a lot of love and care. Every two weeks or so you need to wash it with some magical wig shampoo and conditioner, and you need to brush it out whenever you wear it. The nice thing about a human hair wig is that you can treat it just like you would hair. It can be curled and straightened without being damaged, which is wonderful. I expected the wig to be itchy and uncomfortable, but it's actually quite nice. It just feels like you're wearing a thin cap around your head. Then again, I'm bald, so for someone with long hair it might be much more uncomfortable. But all in all, I'm really really happy, and this wig will surely boost my confidence in many ways, especially when I begin school in the fall. 



Saturday, August 23, 2014

My Own Path





I've been thinking a lot about the future lately
And how there seems to be so many requirements.
Graduate high school
Go to college
Graduate college
Get a job
Get a husband
Have a family
Live to see your great grandchildren
Die at a ripe old age. 

Sure, that lifestyle works for many people, but I have been reminding myself lately that there is more than that one way to live my life. I don't have to do what other people my age are doing. My priorities and values can be different, and that's okay. For me, given my recent life experiences, a lot of the things my peers find important are mere specks of dust in my mind. Grades, boyfriends, social lives--these things are no longer important in my mind. I now realize that there are things far more important that we should focus on. I'd prefer to focus on finding a home within myself and learning to be self compassionate and happy. If that means sacrificing some of the "normal" teenage experiences, so be it. I know what it's like to be in total darkness, and hitting rock bottom has made me realize that getting a grade lower than an A is no big deal. It's okay for me to wander off the beaten path. If I'm happy and content within myself, everything else will fall into place. I can work on learning the banjo and climbing mountains if I want to. It doesn't matter if my friends are busy going to sports practice and attending football games. There aren't any rules to leading the "right" life. 
I'm at a different place than my peers. And yes, that can be pretty hard, since I feel as though I cannot always relate to others my age. But I am where I am supposed to be. And that's okay.